Hate

Hate

I hate you
But in me hating you I've grown to hate myself
Because I am just like you
I'm so much like you that it scares me 
It scares me to the point that I fear I'll never be at peace
The fact that I hard it hard to believe but easy to see 
That I walk like you 
act like you
Look like you
That I might think like you eats me up inside
Did you avoid and hide on purpose
While tried so hard seek and find my purpose
A piece of me that couldn't be explained
Till I came to understand
Everything
So now what's left
That vacancy 
The void 
The hole I tried to fill was filled
But with a something that was rotten
And has now began to start rotting away at my core
This feeling of coming undone is bitter sweet 
And rancid 
Because it disgusts me
And i stay clear of mirrors
Because i disgust myself
I've disgraced myself
I fucking hate myself