Soul On The Page (this is me)

so yeah not really sure what to make of this is it spoken word (poetry) or some unorthedox rap. frankly i don't want to label this take it for what it is... me bearing my soul for anyone who dares to read.

allow me to disrobe, so you can see me a little more clearly/
without those clothes I don't look anywhere fat, see/
see me, and all of my imperfections/
i don't like mirrors, because they remind me of my imperfections/
i don't like mirrors, because they show me my reflection/
you see the clothes are just for the protection from the heat and the cold/
but you don't see the clothes aren't just for the protection from the heat and the cold but protection from the judging eyes of all yo'z(yours)/
its a fear you see/
that's hidden deep inside of me/
this is my soul on a page, this is me/
me and my insecurities/
my beliefs, hopes, and dreams are as fragile as glass, it seems/
i tend to keep them wrapped to avoid the fears of them meeting the rocks of life and ending with a loud, sharp, crash. all from one trip during a dash/
so with that/
if my dreams are like glass/
then my hopes would be dead grass/
trampled on, ripped up, cut, and grown to be mowed down again/
hopes are like blue grass in a drought, in southern cali/
far,far away from the valley/
in the middle of in wildfire season/
my beliefs i won't explain this and i don't need a reason/
however i will say i feel like I've been abandoned and stranded/
and allowed to let my thoughts run rampit/
as i take a chug, gulp, swallow, and a sip/
maybe this disease and the disorder will release me from their grip/
i guess i can wait and enjoy it while chug gulp swallow and a sip/
so now you've seen me, me in the flesh, down to the birthday suit, bare, and butt naked/
see me and know that I didn't fake this/
take this/
this is my soul on the page, this me bare naked/

shorties 21

Stick with your lessons fool/
cause if you knew what Smith & Wesson do,
you would stay with a weapon too/
greed, jealousy, & envy are crazy motivators dude/
she see you with yeah new boo,
you never know what an Ex will do/
just to have a piece of you too/
stay true and turn her down,
back away, never turn your back and expect to walk away/
cause I know bitches that'll get the stabbing you/
dare you call 5-0, oh yea boy they'll be cuffing you/
i know been and done that/
had close calls and that case I barely won that/
time in a cell ain't worth the time to fight back/
if believe anything i say then homie please believe that/

shorties 20

As long as I can remember,
I been given em the biz and saying how it is/
even when I was misclassified, thinking what my problem is
wondering why I didn't fit in with the with the stupid and the ignorant/
i could pop off a gun,
but was never sure why cool with it/
but I know its kill or be killed,
so I learned to be luke warm with it/
i put my fears before my values and moved on with shit/
I wonder how the fuck did it ever come to this/
now to this day I'm hating myself for shit/
fuck it i know its bad for ya health,
but i grew up with a love/hate relationship with myself/
now i find my warmth and comfort,
at the bottom of a bottle of southern comfort/
as long as my manz Jose, Jim, Johnny, and jack got my back/
i know by the night of the night I'll be somewhat iight with that/

shorties 19

Weez on the mic,
this the 20-10 rhymefest/
i get yall high off my words,
I got all chinky eyed like Budapest/
you can't even front,
no Kalid but you hear us saying we the best/
When cops come around I dash fast,
gone with the wind like my name is the flash/
killa when I accelerate mash and blast,
peddle to the metal, peeling off super charger fast/
ducking & dodging yall ain't bad ass, you niggas just ass/
im hot I run through niggas just like gas/
ill blow you away *whew* ash/
look at my so far I'm accomplished/
never been caught I'm a thief but never been a convict/
Took over Jerz with Dave as my accomplice/
and I don't even consider myself accomplished/
homie i'ma shark would eat that ass up,
ya'll would be a light dish/
toss yo ass in the water, lil shrimp/
then its on the next one lil fish, lil bitch/
and I'm just fucking round, wait til I bomb shit/
boom bitch/

shorties 18- Where's The Sunshine (incomplete)

1st this is no done, I'm gonna revise and this later

2nd i don't have a beat yet, so I'm working out the kinks.

3rd i put this up so ya'll can read it and let me know what you think, so far. so hit me up and let me know.

every man has a vice, in my case a got a duo/
i been known to drink and no 'h' and 2-oh/
but mostly i was strung/
the shit that was thrown at me had a nigga singing odd tunes/
It was never bout getting the strange pussy/
it was all about how easy it was to get strange pussy/
i did what did to just to keep em gushing/
but like porno star, you know i keep it pushing/
ladies, i keep em looking/
keep them hot up in the pot, yeah i keep it cooking/
swear the alcohol felt like a miracle/
till i woke up in despair and all/
some say drunk, others say alcoholic/
to-may-to, ta-ma-to i say fuck what they call it/
cause i was in search of a good time/
so you know escape has a code word, i call it a good time/
a drink and some ass could always make a nigga feel better/
it was like standing in the eye of hurricane weather/
but the next day i always manage to pull myself to together/
and that night I'm like where's chocha and the wine/
i think i like em more then morning sunshine/
Where did it go...

shorties 17

Running from the flashing lights/
Or living in the flashy lights/
Which life is for me/
the fame the peace the riches and the glory/
I want it all I gotta have it all/
If can't have it all I don't want it at all/
so im a ball till I fall, cause thats how I play yall/
allday and er'day/
clockwork like 24/7 365 and 66 on a leap year/
i'm nothing like a hero when i'm round, you got everything to fear/
walk through the doors ya'll know what to do when i'm up in here/
duck behind, hit the deck, and bitches they gon shed a tear/
Constipated no exlax so nigga back up/
you talking to a Sgt dickhead private better stand up/
im a silver back beating my chest daring anyone to man up/

shorties 16

I can take you to a new dimension/
inside the mind is where you begin your ascension/
love my country and some may say I'm eccentric/
just like I love my niggas, but I've never been Afrocentric/

shorties 15

Dim the lights & gimme a mic/
then listen to the beats, poems, raps, & life/
fist in the air but nobody here to fight/
this is my blackness without the absence light/
This is me in the 3rd degree/
that mean the 3rd person/
slip of the tongue & that will be hurting/
not the 3rd or the 2nd/
but the 1st & i reckon/
that this proud/
Soul whether it be young or old/
my chest pump hot blood but from a heart mad of cold stone/
so new scuffle I'm in wait till the dust settle/

Shorties 14

Fuck the law I stay on the wrong side/
i cant see black or what call the doc I think I may be color blind/
only shades of gray is the liqueur or am I prone to blur lines/
Only 25 and ya boy flows aged like a fine wine/
punctual you see I deliver my punch lines on time/
and I'm in my lyrical prime/
so another like I something you ain't go you ain't gon find/
now my heart is feeling colder from the world on my shoulders/
plus with that I'm paranoid thinking that year I might be getting shorter/

Shorties 13- I'm Going In

Ayo first off I ain't neva spoke with them shirt & ties/
unless they was my peeps and they had family ties/
wet behind the ears watch ya step we string em up & hang out to dry/
stool pigeon niggas dead on the pavement, guess they neva learned to fly/
I be so semper fi, better yet I be so semper fly/
my niggas puffing good yeah homie they be semper high/
baby face, hard body, & the ladies say I'm such a guy/
neva been a good guy, I'm more like a hood guy/
something like kwal-lie, doing what I do jus so I can get by/
why you watching me, Lil nigga you should watch my rims spin/
i be moving round, you get dazed like you caught up in a whirlwind/
I'm so abstract, I'm black man with the mind of a hooligan/
royal flush in my hand, I see em bluffing how the hell you fooling man/
WHAT THE FUCK YOU THINKING NIGGA OF COURSE I'M GOIN IN!!!/

yeah I'm going in just like a porn star/
seriously who disagree with me that I be going hard/
pause, oh my God/
i be reppin for my city, state, and for my fucking squad/
live on the scene, i got these broads shaking like some tambourines/
nothing and nobody is as they seem/
must a took a am-be-een cause everywhere i look i can see my dreams/
I gotta tell ya who da fuck I is kids/
doesn't really matter just know I'm all about my biz-niz/
get up in these be-yitches/
have em screaming Jesus please us/
but when I'm done I leave shaking and shivering like a seiz-za/
I be drinking like a fish d be smoking like he popey/
rims so clean I leave all jaw dropped and pop-eyed/
then I hit the gas and tell the hoes bye-bye/
I don't think that they hear me clearly (zrooom)/
damn I kill myself ha ha here kire (hiri kiri)/
MY NIGGAS I'M GOIN IN!!!